I haven’t posted in a few days, mostly on purpose. I’ve been reading Eat Pray Love which I mentioned last week, and when I made that list last week of all the stuff I was going to post about this week, it just made me tired. And then I read Elizabeth Gilbert’s book and she discusses so many different things, but mostly she talks about trying to find balance and peace in her world. I don’t have that right now. I don’t know how to achieve that – at all. But I want to try.
This weekend I am off for four straight days and I have three goals:
1. To begin to meditate
Call me crazy, nuts, wacko, weird, whatever, but I can’t find quiet time within myself EVER, and I think it’s worth a try to see how this works. Every night when I lay down to sleep, my mind races and when I try to calm it, I can’t stop thinking of things that worry me or stress me. It’s like I have a handbrake on my brain train, but no matter how hard I try to stop, the train keeps going, careening down some tracks and probably headed off a cliff somewhere and I have no control over it.
2. To find a yoga class
The problem with living where I live is that I don’t have access to things that are available to people who live in normal-sized cities. The yoga classes at our health club are the generic ones that are taught by whatever teenaged aerobics instructor happens to be around. I want a real class.
3. To organize
I don’t just mean my house, although it’s a disaster and needs some serious help. I also want to organize my mind. I want to de-clutter, re-organize and either find compartments for all my crap or toss it out and forget about it.
I have absolutely no idea how to go about doing any of this stuff. I think that probably I’ll just do some web surfing and hunt and peck for what to do. I’m open to suggestions. I’m just starting to feel like my mind is running on an empty stomach, on no sleep and without a bottle of water or rest stop in sight. It’s not a good feeling.
“Meditation brings wisdom; lack of meditation leaves ignorance. Know well what leads you forward and what holds you back, and choose the path that leads to wisdom.” – Buddha
Oh, and am I crazy or did I just read on Elizabeth Gilbert’s website that she wrote the story that inspired the movie “Coyote Ugly?” For reals?
I have been wanting to read Eat, Pray, Love so I am glad to know you give it good reviews. Also, isn’t there a yoga place in downtown Smithfield? Maybe that will be more of what you are looking for!
Oh that’s right…I forgot about that place downtown. I’ll look into it and see what kind of place it is. I’ll keep you posted!
i like this list. a lot. i’ve tried out a few meditation podcasts from itunes that have been pretty good.
I was also going to suggest the meditation podcasts and relaxation information from iTunes. They are free and it’s great to listen to as you fall asleep (well, that’s the only quiet time I have, so that’s what I do.) I’ve really enjoyed learning to meditate but still have a tough time finding and making the time to do it regularly. Good luck with all of these!
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